the world is so broken

i wonder what drives someone to the point of doing something horrific and terrifying. I'm not solely talking about shooting numerous students on a college campus but what about child sex trafficking? what about invisible children? what happened to the world to make it so broken? people suffer so much every day, so much crap happens to them that they didn't ask for, how do you expect them to have hope? well, i guess i don't expect them to have hope because i guess i don't really have too much either. i just have a little bit, that one day God will redeem the sins of this world... but when is that day going to be and why isn't it now?

but then what about the people who inflict all this injustice? what's going on through their minds as their doing it? what reasoning can ever justify raping a 6 year old girl that's crying out for her mother? i seriously don't understand this world. i just don't get it. why would anyone ever do anything so horrible? I'm not really trying to place all the blame on this guy who killed 32 people and say everything's all his fault and he's so messed up because i'm sure there's a story behind everything, but that still doesn't make things okay. and i know we're supposed to love our enemy and forgive all sins, but sometimes i wonder if that's possible. Before, i used to think that if you fully knew and understood someone then it'd be impossible not to love them. and i guess sometimes i still think that, but it's so hard to think that in the world that we live in. so many unjustifiable things happen that people get twisted. and their sense of right and wrong is awry. even then what can make a person think it's okay to bring a gun to school and shoot everyone in sight? sin i guess... and satan. it's so easy to blame things on satan, but then at the same time, weren't we made in the image of God? don't we have a little bit of God in each of us? so then again, why would someone do something so terrible? i seriously just don't get it. and i don't think i ever will...